Currently Listening Unwritten By Natasha Bedingfield Unwritten see related

HEY!!!

Omg has this day been amazing or what?!?!

Well first off I went back to Lakewood and I had a kick ass day! I got my schedule and even though I have no classes with Kathryn, Nicole, or Austin I still have friends like Hilary, Kerstin, Anna, Amy...etc. So all is GREAT! Kathryn and I walked linking arms to one of our classes cause they are in the same hall. OH MAN! GOOD TIMES ARE BACK!

Then I was at the office and found out that Mia is having her baby today, Cora...well she did already hahaha at 6... God I cant wait to see how beautiful she is!

I come home and find out that The Veronicas (Jess and Lisa are having another tour....I believe by themselves. So it'll be cool to see them again!

My dad also told me that sometime this weekend the boys (Shawn, Doug and Paul) are suppose to redo my bathroom. I'm getting new tile in my shower, a WHOLE new vanity which means new sink...as well as new tile for my floor! I'm so excited cause he told me I get to pick it all out!! WOO HOO!

well g2g before I get in trouble with the mother hehehe ttyl BAHHH

Currently Listening Diva By Annie Lennox Why see related

Alrighty...so I've been thinking a lot today. This past year I've been extremely blessed in every way shape and form. My whole family is all reasonably healthy...with the expection of my grandfather being a tad sick over the past two months with a little internal bleeding. And the whole me throwing up the other day.  haha

I've met some AMAZING people (artists, friends, neighboors etc.) whom will always have a special place in my heart.

I've been blessed at the fact that my family has been able to keep a sucessful business running for a little over a full year.

This year has been full of test as well. Of friends, faith, school, boys, trust, love, goals, and responsibility.

I've recently mended friendship problems...dealing with a stupid mistake...shit happens. And I have prayed about it and came to the fact that ppl do stupid things and there's better things to do then get mad. Mend the relationship, talk things over, move on, and get back to where you left off. Why make a big deal about nothing?

 I've learned that you need to have a full faith in God. Whether you believe it or not God has a certain plan for you...yes I believe that you can change the course of that plan, which is then you're responsiblity. But it is your responsiblity to ask God to help guide you the right way. I have gone back to listening to certain types of "Christian" music...as well as keeping my normal favs.

School...I've learned that you need to work where you want to get. You can't sit back and let someone else take charge of your life. As well as let them tell you what you're capable of, what you can and can't do. No one knows what best for you better than you're self! Which goes hand in hand with goals. I have a goal to become either a writer for a magazine/photo journalist or some sort of photographer. I was told many times by my previous school *coughBRHScough* that I wasn't going to be able to start acheiving my goal till the end of high school // early college. I want to work at it now. Not have someone tell me I CAN'T. To me that just doesn't cut it. So...i put myself (with the help of my wonderful mother) back in a place that supports me...a little chunk of heaven called Lakewood Ranch High, the almighty Mustangs!

Boys...oh wow. I've learned that you must love yourself and be confident with yourself before anyone will be confident in you. Needless to say this year wasn't full with relationships...well none actually, but I'm understanding many personalities of a guy. I've found there's certian guys who are underconfident in themselves aka shy that they can't open up with the ones they like//love. I've also found some that are TOO OVER confident. Meaning, they know they can get girls so they try and get a whole bunch of them at one time. See...no matter what they say, it doesn't fly with me. Drop them girlies! Whether they "love" you or not...it's not worth the heart ache. I believe that there's one...possibly two ppl for everyone. You'll have you're chance. You just have to wait for it.

Trust... trust is something you have to have with any relationship. Whether it be friends or dating relationships. I see that when you meet someone their...board per say is half filled with trust. As time goes by they either earn//gain your trust or lose it. I've had both happen. Some cases in one "relationship." But I see it as just a test of that relationship. Stuff happens, but through my praying and thinking heavily you can't dewell on something so trivial....so what if they lied. Depending the case the person should have a chance to explain and redeem themselves...giving them full notice that if they lie or what not again there's conciquences in that "relationship." Possible chances that the relationship can be halted...torn...stopped completely. Why spend you're life worrying. Move on. And I think I had problems with moving on...as well as others in many cases. Not just one.

Love...not just boy//girl relationships. Family, friends etc. There's tests you must overcome to know how to love the best you can. Put yourself first...everyone else behind you. Or maybe that special someone next to you.

Ahhh *lets breath out* Responsiblity...I think this year has hit the roof! I've taken on sooo much...at times I get stressed. Even to the point where I get so fed up I break down. But sometimes you just have to let it out. Definatly this past 2-3 months has hit me for the most part. I've become the neighboor babysiter so everyones always in a constant fight of who gets me for the weekend. Yet sometimes I think that no one takes into concideration that I am only 17 means I have basically two-ish years of left being a kid. It seems that I'm always on the go. It got so bad that yesterday I went from house to house...hardly having enough time to PEE...wait. What am I talking about? I don't EVEN get to pee by myself anymore hahaha. Yet, I've learned thats apart of being responsible. I'm learning to work hard for my money. And save up nescesities (sp) in life, such as a car, car payments, gas, my own clothes (SOMETIMES), movie tickets. Stuff that I want. Yet I love not having to ask my parents for money all the time. I'm not constantly wondering if I'm gonna have enough money for presents or let alone a pack of gum to freshen my breath. I pull out the wallet and get it myself. And boy do I love that! It makes me feel independent. Confident in my working skills.

My work isn't something like anyone else. I don't work at Publix, Sonic, the movie theaters. What is that gonna teach you in life besides paper or plastic; would you like fries with that; and where the horror movies are in Blockbuster. What in life does that prepare you for? No, I do something that will benefit me when I'm older...I babysit. I learn how to behave around kids. What I should do if the child is sick, or how to change a diaper. That'll benefit me in the long run! and I love it!

So yeah...if this year has been a pain it's had its amazing days and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world!

Currently Watching The Lion King 1 1/2 see related

Hey Hey Ya'll!!!

What's shakin'? Not much here just babysitting Ella. The past two days have been VERY interesting...Tuesday I came over to babysit Ella and ended up throwing up all in her sink... YES KINZ I THROW UP IN SINKS...hahaha my only other option was the bath tub. Then the rest of the day I spent sleeping and puking some more!!! HAHAHA

Yesterday Kathryn came over and we hung out and then saw The Ringer....FUNNIEST MOVIE EVER!!! OMFG!!! HAHAHAHAHA

Today Im babysitting Ella and shes in the other room watching Lion King 1 1/2 hahaha Shes like YOU HERE SOMETHING STEPHIE!!! UH OH!!! THEY'RE THERE!!! hahaha UGHHH tomorrow I have to go to work for my mom and dad. I still have one more van to inventory. FOR THIS CAR!!!

Oh how I want it soooooooo bad!!!!  well g2g ttyl bahhhh

                              **Quote**

"Omg thats the funiest, yet the most STUPID thing I've heard you say in my LIFE!!! Who sucks water up there nose CAUSE IT BURNS!!! YOU CAN DIIIIIIIE!" -Kathryn as shes rolling on the floor laughing-

"Uhh ta ta ta ta! You picked my cd out of the clear blue sky and YOU SCRATCHED IT!" -guy off of The Ringer-

"I just went and got them ice cream. I thought they deserved it before the big oylmpics" -Dave-

"When the f*ck did we get ice cream?! Did YOOOOU guys get any ice cream? I think Davey just didn't want you to know about the pants around the ankles and trying to find an earring." -Jeffy to Lynn and Dave in the Ringer-

Currently Listening Secret Life of By Veronicas Speechless see related

Hey ya'll!!!

WOW I haven't written in this thing in FOREVER...yes myspace has taken over! But that's okay...cause I'm updating now.

Well Christmas is approaching on me fast and I have my family shopping done...now all I have left is Austin...got the girlies done though . Kathryn's away at the Bahamas today...NO FAIR! but she told me she would have taken me in her suitcase.

Kid's Christmas was AWESOME! I had a complete blast!

This week I've been doing inventory at my parents work and it soooo hard. I REALLY hope I did it right cause if not I won't be able to get a car.   

Well it seems as if things are being patched up which is always a good thing....ne whooooo...gtg ttyl! bahhh

AHHHH i met The Veronicas THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY!!! Here's the some of the nights.

WARNING THIS IS LONG BUT SOOOOO WORTH THE READ! lol psst has to do with staying at my hotel

On Thursday the 24th (Thanksgiving Day) I was suprised with tickets to go see Ryan and The Veronicas as an early birthday gift. Originally I had already planned to go with two of my friends on the 26th to Orlando on my birthday but my aunt won tickets for Tampa and gave them to me.

11/25 Friday-Tampa

Well we got to the arena and noticed how EMPTY it was...not to mention we were the furthest people back and we were suppose to have these AWESOME radio station tickets...no lol. Thank GOD when the girls came on they woke everyone up and told us to come up front. My friend Kathryn and I RUSHED to the front. They were absolutly AMAZING! We were like the only ones in our area screaming and singing the lyrics (besides a little in 4ever.) Even one point in the night someone told us "I wish I knew the lyrics or even who they are!" We just kept on screaming. So about half way through they told everyone to get out there cell phones during Heavily Broken and wave them around....only cause we had them up anyways recording it.

Well after all the little pranks Ryan put on them....(pic lol)



We went upstairs to meet them. Through the whole time we were standing there we kept going "YEAH CLICK 5 IS ON WHY DONT YA'LL GO SEE THEM!!!" Hoping ppl would step out of line lol...but no such luck hahaha. Once we got up there I handed Jess a letter that my friend had wrote for them. They said "Aww thanks that's so sweet"... So we asked for a pic and I asked them if they were going to be in Orlando cause I had heard that they weren't. The girls had EVEN remembered it was my birthday the next night from leaving a comment on my myspace a few days before. We were the first group to get a pic with them



Lisa and Jess (obviously haha), Kathryn and I.



Then as we were walking down stairs Kathryn goes "THATS THE GUITAR DUDE AS TO GET A PIC WITH HIM!" So we did and he goes "So are we gonna be nice or meeeeeannnnnn?"





So after the concert we walked outside and met up with my mama and brother. My mom told me that she had spoken with the photographer of the show and that he would send her some pics through email. He had also told her where the buses were so we went around the corner and waited. We noticed the lines were REALLY LONG so we went around the first big bus....Kathryn and I looked up inside and started waving to both of them...they got some water and walked out as we were walking towards the back of the bus. We turned around and saw them come out looking around for us. I was like "Kathryn kathryn ask if they will talk to Meg on the phone!" Meg...being the girl who wrote the letter to them. So we both walked over there and I got the guts and said "Hey! Do ya'll mind talking to my friend on the phone? Please" Lisa GLADLY took the phone, asked for her name and talked to her for a little bit...my friend was COMPLETELY THRILLED that they said her lyrics were awesome.




HAHA Kathryn caught them off gaurd...as we yapped to Jess while Lisa was on the phone. lol


11/26 Saturday- Orlando


hahaha oh lord brace yourselves lol hahaha

We got to the hotel around....12:30 and we were STARVING! So we decided to eat at a place called "The Kitchen" as we were eating we see this girl with black hair, big sunglasses, and black tube top dress walk by our table kinda with her head down (hehehehee) Kathryn and i FLIPPED! We were like "OMG THATS JESS THATS JESS!" Our friend Laura had no idea WHO we were talking about....we told her lol.

So Kathryn's mom and my mom (LADY'S DAY OUT!! lol) were like GO CHECK IT OUT! GO GO! So we ran behind all the trees and everything...and noticed she was sitting with Josh and some other guy...forget his name lol...so we got stuck behind the water slide and the ONLY way around it was to walk past them. I WAS NOT about to do that! Laura and Kathryn were like "LETS GO SAY HI!!!" OH NO! I was not gonna bother her while she was eating for god sakes lol. So I looked down and walked past.

Once she was done eating Laura and Kathryn decided that they wanted to FOLLOW HER AROUND THE POOL! lmfao (Jess if you ever read this I AM SOOO SORRY hahaha I have no clue WHAT they were thinking lol) ne who....I wasnt about to do that so I sat my bootay down and picked up my phone and started talking to Meg. As I was talking they had BLOCKED the only way she could go was to go past them. I was freaking out lol So they let Jess walk past them and she just casually walked up the steps past me...she looked over, smiled and kept walking. Laura and Kathryn RANNN over and was like OMG OMG....I was just laughing cause I think Jess knew....

Then after we ate Josh was like I CANT FIND HER! Randomly...and he was wondering how close the arena was from the hotel. So Kathryn and I were like "SHES OUT BY THE POOL". He goes "ohh you too again haha. You're coming to the show tonight too?"


blah blah the concert was great...Ryan kissing Lisa was cute lol....


The next day we were about to leave and we were walking past the Hard Rock Store inside the hotel and Laura goes "I think Jess was inside!" We turn around and she was RIGHT behind us...like no kidding 2 feet. Laura being the dumb one she is goes *mocks* "Are you from The Veronicas?" Jess...poor thing was carrying like 3 suitcases (yes the one from the music video) she goes "yyyeahhh" so we talked for a little bit...told her that they did amazing and rocked! And we were mad cause not a lot of ppl really knew any of the songs and what not. She was just like "Aww you girls are too sweet". Then they left in a big white van and we watched them leave and waved to them as they drove off..... haha dont think they saw us lol.....heheh


BUT it was so awesome!!!! Sry that was forever long! Yeah man I'm getting too old....17!!!!

Let's look back: 40 questions about 2005.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
- Yes MA'AM....sir? lol

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
- OMG ummm BIRTHDAY!

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
- switching to Braden River High

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
- *thinks* Over at Sam's house watching MTV's ICE OUT NEW YEARS

5) Who were you with?
- Sam, her sister, and parents...they were outside I think

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
- At my house....having a party hopefully...

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
- my family, Kathryn, Nicole, Laura, Christina, Danielle and Austin???

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
- i dont make one

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
- i didnt make one

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
- nooo :( but i do have a strong crush

11) If yes, with who?
- NONE YEAH

12) If yes, do they know?
- no :( I wish

13) Are you still in love with them?
- omg enough with these love questions! RUB IT IN WHY DONT U!

14) Do you regret it?
- STARTING TO! lol

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
- nope

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
- yes! Laura... and some concert buddies along the way!

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
- Laura from Braden River and a few unmentioned lol

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
- November

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
- nope...want to

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
- 4

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
- no

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
- lots of people: everyone at Lakewood

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
- Saw 2, Undiscovered, Just Like Heaven

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
- Heavily Broken by The Veronicas

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
- I couldn't stop listening to The Veronicas!!

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
- 2 Kelly's (May and July) 2 Ryans (February and Nov.) Idol 4 (July)

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
- i love them all....Idol would be last lol

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
- no...a sip or two...thats it...PROMISE (just a taste of my moms)

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
- no!

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
- geez we're getting personal....um...none

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
- YES! DIDNT SIGN THOSE STUPID PAPERS TO STAY AT LAKEWOOD...BELIEVED SOMEONE WHO LIED TO ME FOR 5 MONTHS...i think im good

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
- OOOOHHH!!! GRRRRRRRR! Speaking of lying....well someone made me believe a good GABILLION lies....then decided when she wanted to say that they were going to talk to me online instead of talking to me on the phone...they changed there s/n and decided to never again speak to me....shows how much they know ;)

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
- yes

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
- YES!!!

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
- WAY TOO MUCH!

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
- can't say :X you'll see after cmas!

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
- I don't get embarrassed..... EVER!

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
- believing people that could possibly have been my best friend

40) What are your plans for 2006?
- get good grades...hang out with friends more...and go to more concerts!